realisation

I've just come to realise something:

I shouldn't really prioritise those who don't put me first, it just leaves to disappointment.
It not like I've realised this right NOW, it's just I've accepted this before and not let myself be valued for the friendship I share with some people.

On a lighter note..
EID MUBARAK to people whenever the moon's sighted.
Have a great day.

livejournal

So I was browsing blogs and realised that blogspot doesn't come under 'Open ID' and I really don't like commenting anonymously, so I've made a LiveJournal account.
It's probably not going to have much on it besides a link sending the readers here or whatever, but there's this thing they have called 'Writer's Block' and it's just a random question or idea someone's given to the general LiveJournal users to answer, I really like that idea so I'm going to do those over at that account.
If anyone's interested in reading that then it's
here

way out

Bruised, battered and hurt,
He treated her worse than dirt.
But no-one could care less,
he ripped her letters, tore her dress.
In her silent tears and pain,
She sobs and has nothing to gain.
He laughs and slams the door.
Letting her know he'll be back for more.
Trapped in her own home and mind,
She looks in the cupboard, emotionally blind
Some pills appear and some drink,
She sits down and starts to think:
Is death the only way out?
Is there anything she can do about
Her victimised state
And the sheer rotten luck of fate...
She hears the lock turn
And feels her insides abruptly churn
The footsteps draw closer
The reality becomes clearer,
She whispers a prayer and places the bottle to her lips
And slowly begins to sip...

this is how it is

-'How are you?'
-'Not too good but I'll survive'
-'Mmm, okaay'
-'...'

Nobody REALLY cares but they still continue to ask the same mundane question everyday, over and over again.

Why ask?
Maybe out of politeness, making small talk or just because it's what they're expected to do.

I hate that we ask [I'm guilty of this too] and rarely take in what the answer is.
We should care.
We should be more willing to ease a person's difficulties just for the sake that this person is in our lives.

This is a small scale issue, but if you were to multiply this situation by 1000 then you'd see it happening on such a wider scale:

*switch on the news*
-''A gunman in Finland has shot 10 people in Kauhajoki before turning the gun on himself.'
*switches it off*

We've lost the ability to EMPATHISE and actually FEEL the pain of others.
It's so upsetting how we hear so many horrific stories that should make us wince at the pain of our fellow brothers and sisters across the world.
But no.
We can't.

I think if we hear or see something in the news, or just in our everyday lives we should take a moment to think and contemplate on the story, maybe slowly we will have instilled the ability to empathise.
I see it like this:
Empathy will help prevent us from doing harm since we are able to feel the emotions of another.

freshers

I have to go into Uni tomorrow because I've been asked to take the freshers round on the induction day. I'm not fussed too much about it, I'm getting paid 50 quid to go in 3days and just answer questions and smile!
:]
I can do that.

Reminds me of when I was new at uni last year.
So dazed and nervous, not really knowing what to expect at Uni.
I hadn't planned on starting Uni so soon after my A Levels, I thought I'd enrol back into college and get some more than the 2 I'd got the previous year~ but a friend of mine told me to phone in Clearing and the Uni gave me a place!

It feels weird to think that when I go in tomorrow I'll already have a year of Uni education under my belt.
Wow.
I feel like I should be wiser, more mature and everything else that comes along with the passing of another academic year, but I really don't.
Maybe once classes start and I have sat in the lectures..

Good luck to whoever's starting Uni this year, I doubt this is an experience you'll forget in a hurry.

unity fm~Ramadhan Radio

I'm currently listening to this radio station.
It's a mixture of Islam meets the West.
Young brothers discussing the beauty of Ramadhan and other general topics that arise in the society of today.

I've laughed and smiled at their humerous antics, but also contemplated on their words behind the humour.Mashallah.

I've got my headphones in and listening to them discussing how in Saudi everything is centered around the salaah. How salaah is quality not quantity.

Check it out if you live in Birmingham or can get this radio station.

Radio station: 93.5 FM
Their myspace: http://www.myspace.com/genxfm

Inshallah you will be entertained and enlightened.
Ameen.

18 September [trials]

You cried.
I listened.

You screamed.
I endured.

You despaired.
I sympathised.

Only because I love you.
What you did to me, I will forget.
Only because I love you.

horoscope

I rarely check my horoscopes what with it being so generic it can make sense for every other reader in the world, and it's bogus.

But I checked out the new themes on iGoogle and I read this:

You are ready to talk up a storm today, but you could accidentally create a misunderstanding unless you think everything through before you open your mouth. You aren't particularly eager to do the work that is required, so consider taking off some time now to relax, before you get started.

It's quite ironic that I read this AFTER my surprise phonecall.
Wow.
Guess it IS generic then!
:P

what happened?

I felt your presence
Sheltering me from the darkness

I felt your protection
Guiding me towards the light

I felt your relief
Protecting me from danger

I felt your words
Assisting my choices

I felt your sympathy
Comforting me from the pain

I felt your distance
Letting go of my hand

I felt your anger
Dismissing my petty excuses

I felt your absense
Leaving me all alone

I hear you calling me
Saying all is not lost

I see your beauty
Showing me you exist

I anticipate your forgiveness
Enveloping me in your mercy

Place me under your Shade
Shine your Infinite Light on me

I ask for your forgiveness.

new facebook

Gosh.
I went on facebook after ages and most of the status' were complaining about the new facebook.
I guess I understand people's reactions towards the 'improved' [??] version of facebook {even though I can't see much reason as to WHY they would change it} and I just thought:

Woaah, people are so addicted to this social networking site.
A change means SO much to them that they feel the need to join every single group protesting against this.It's like a 'movement' against this huge change.

Maybe because of how complicated it is, I will quit checking my facebook so regularly.
I'm going to see it as an incentive to NOT go on my facebook so often.
And since Ramzan I actually haven't. It's healthy anyways.

when it rains, it pours

Today's been a pretty rubbish-y day.
I had spelt with this horrid itch on my arm. I burnt myself a couple days bakc and though the burn has healed, the skin around that burn mark has started itching me really badly. I try to stop myself from scratching it, but it's so sore and itchy.
I woke up and saw two new marks around the burn. All red and angry scratch marks.

Had to go in for teaching and I kept getting frustrated at everyone.
It's not the kids fault.I know that, but how do parents expect a teacher who only has the children for 2hours a day concentrate on each individual? Most parents don't even bother to go over what the children have been taught. They're just not interested in the teaching process.
>.<

I don't want to complain and moan. But I feel like I will vent at someone I love rather than just keep it all in. It's so frustrating when life throws you in a position where you're so unsure of your own capabilities.

It rained on the way back from madressa.
Yeppp.
Life's absolutely brilliant.

brick breaker

There's this awesome game on my bro's mobile called: Brick Breaker.
It's so damn addictive.
I played on it from half 1 til 3am.
:O

Love ittt!

You have this little paddle at the bottom and a ball which has to break a series of bricks above the paddle.Everytime the ball falls you have to make sure it lands on the paddle.
Sounds lame but omygosh, so frikkin addictive!

It's says Level 2o there but I've only been upto the 6th level yet!
:)

so new.so apprehensive

I've had this idea of starting a blog for a while now.
Everytime I read someone else's blog or stumble across someone's written words online~ I envy the fact that I haven't started something up for myself. So here I am. A new blog and hopefully the start of something great!
If not, then atleast I'll have done this and can buy the t-shirt and smile at the memory of blogging.
Look at me, already thinking of quitting.
No, I want to atleast do this blog malarkey for a couple of months.

I have no idea of what this blog will contain and which direction its heading. But I enjoy writing and just having a creative outlet for my thoughts.
:)

That's all I have to say for now.
Byeeeeee.