poise&&rationality

As she takes another step forward, she lets her mind wander to how things had been.

Days were filled with dressing up and laughter, mother had smiled more often than she could ever remember. The sunlight would touch her little feet and warm her inside and out, it was warmth she could feel in her surroundings.Mother's arms would be wrapped around her comforting her with her presence, picnics in the park and visits to old relatives invited more joy and happiness than she could ever recall.

The footsteps quicken and she senses the urgency in her mother's grip tugging her forward. The cold,biting wind cruelly tussles with her curls and sends a chill across her little frame. Her leather shoes resound against the pavement and remind her of the destination they're headed. She sighs, a pitiful sound from a child so young.

Her mother knocks and mutters to herself, oblivious to her daughter and the light pattering of the rain. She squints up after knocking several times- the rain does not bother her as much as the owner of the house she knocks on. The wait seems long and her mother's patience is waning, slowly she walks backwards,away from the house and drags her along.

Just as she is about the leave the garden the door opens, an expectant face changes abruptly to a frown. The pitying smile refuses to match with the annoyed expression and dull eyes.They're unwanted here as they have always been.Her mother's insistence and sorrow face reluctantly changes as they are allowed inside the warm home.

smile

Let's hope not, but if it is, just remember yesterday was better.And a thousand yesterdays went smiling and another day is simply yesterday tomorrow.

I've confused myself with that now!

typealyzer

Traipsing round blogs-I came across this which lead me onto ..

..a site which makes an analysis of your blog and tells you what type you are, but it gives you a little note saying that it's not anything to do with the person's self perceived personality [direct quote, don't sue me :p]

Mine was:


ISTP - The Mechanics

The independent and problem-solving type. They are especially attuned to the demands of the moment are masters of responding to challenges that arise spontaneously. They generally prefer to think things out for themselves and often avoid inter-personal conflicts. The Mechanics enjoy working together with other independent and highly skilled people and often like seek fun and action both in their work and personal life. They enjoy adventure and risk such as in driving race cars or working as policemen and firefighters.

What's yours?

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today is all you'll ever have

''yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead,

yesterday is a promise that you've broken''

This sends shivers down my spine and I feel like the lyrics really touch me.
I need to sort my ipod out and change all the old crap I've had on it since the past two months.
I'm just too lazy to sort it out since I've never done it, my sister's always done it for me.

It's getting late and everyone in my house is asleep.
I have plans for tomorrow but not with anyone in particular.
I feel like just taking my debit card and spending money on stuff I'll never look back on just in spite of myself.God knows why, I really can't afford it at the moment since I'm earning just enough to live.
:

dream homes

I've been tagged by exquisite+scarlet wings to write about eight dream homes within the vicinity of where I live.

To be honest, I've been avoiding this tag post for so long-I don't know any gorgeous homes which I yearn to live in.I'm pretty happy with my current home and when I initially stumbled across this tag-post I thought of Harry Potter.Yes, I'm a Harry Potter fangirl so bear with me while I have this fangirl moment.

Okies-so everyone of the English speaking language must have come across the phrase:Home is where the heart is.So now if you're asking for EIGHT homes that's like splitting your heart into eight.Jeez, even Voldemort [haha, now think of the Taboo linked with that name,eeek!] braved seven, I'm considering eight?! But whatever, I don't even think I have eight homes to mention, but I'm going to try my bestest.

RULES:The McCains own 13 cars, eight homes and have access to a corporate jet. If you were as insanely rich as them, where would your eight homes be and why?
The only rule is: The homes must be within the borders of the country you live in, so as to utterly emulate the McCains.
Who else had a political moment there with the 'McCain' name?

I'm not going to do eight homes-It will take me forever to find pixx and I doubt I could find that many to suit my criteria of a 'home'.

I'm a city girl through and through, but this idyllic cottage in Nottingham looks gorgeous, I'd love to have a home where I could just be a complete hermit and enjoy the peace and quiet for a break from life.
A sanctuary from the hectic chaotic throes of the city.

This is a home in the posh London suburb of Hamstead Heath.It's got the rural peace within the buzz of the city, sorta best of both worlds.

Who wouldn't want a castle and lush gardens to loll in under the glorious blue skies of Scotland? This will be home for partying [assuming I have a ridiculous social life consisting of feasts and banquets?!] and simply just lording myself over others.Jeez.This tag is bad for my ego and modesty!

My Welsh home is cute and classy, obviously the flag would have to be reconsidered but it's absolutely stunning.I love the cute little stairs leading into the house and the pillars-wow.Simply stunning!


I tag: Vitaneee, Seher and Liz.
You don't even have to do all eight-as many as you can.
Keep the tag going!
:]

four philosophical questions

So today is World Philosophy Day,ohh you didn't know?
Relax, I just found out once I went on the BBC News homepage-anyhow, on the page they've got these four questions which are morally and philospohically challenging.I thought I'd try to answer them as honestly as I can-

SHOULD WE KILL HEALTHY PEOPLE FOR THEIR ORGANS?
The scenario they've offered on the site is that of a man who has healthy organs but no has no family or loved ones.Is it okay to take his spleen or liver in order to save five other people?Would one person's death be justified for the life of five others?
Life is not ours, it's a blessing and a gift which has been bestowed upon us.Taking another's life to save someone else's is simply putting value to one life over another.In the eyes of our Lord, we're all equal, no life is more valuable for another just because of their current status [ie:doesn't have family/a bad person] So my answer to this is NO, we cannot take the life of a person just for the fact that their organs are valuable for another. Just because there is the possibility of them saving five others doesn't give a guarantee to this.

ARE YOU THE SAME PERSON WHO STARTED READING THIS ARTICLE?
As humans, like any other other animate organism in the world:we are in a continuous motion of changing.The person who started off typing this post has changed-even if it's just ever so slightly-to the end of this line. We are in the constant flux of life, always changing mentally, physically, spiritually~ this change will forever be a part of our lives.Even in death, we are changing to become the decomposed states of our original beings.

IS THAT REALLY A COMPUTER SCREEN IN FRONT OF YOU?
Can we believe anything if we are in denial of all?
The article argues that things aren't always as they seem-illusions and senses being mislead open this door of doubt.But I think that the more in doubt we are, the less competent we are to believe anything tangible which is placed right infront of us.
YES, there is a computer screen infront of me- my eyes see it, my fingers touch it, my ear hears the sounds and my mind comprehends this sensory information being loaded into my mind.If I'm proven wrong, I'm willing to take aboard that explanation.An open mind never hurt anyone who is willing to listen.

DID YOU REALLY CHOOSE TO READ THIS ARTICLE?
The article focuses on free will, is it pre-destined that this is going to be read/was it MY choice alone which lead me to read that?
I think it's a combination of both, it was in my destiny to have read such an article but I had the choice to read it.Just because there is pre-destined knowledge regarding this doesn't mean there is any interference from any Higher Being that I would have read that and you're reading this.

*breathe*

Breathe in and inhale the air,
Breathe out and relish the flair,
Breathe in and look around,
Breathe out and discover sound,
Breathe in and take a glimpse,
Breathe out and connect the links,
Breathe in and open your mind,
Breathe out and excuse the blind,
Breathe in and simply live,
Breathe out and just forgive.

instant human

This pretty much defines me.

Only scratch coffee-it's cappaccino all the way.

:)

I'm up to my neck with essays and coursework but I thought I'd just drop a little something on here.

Hope all's well with wherever you all are.

TWLOHA 2008

13 November 2008: this is the 2nd annual TWLOHA event.Across the globe, people have taken out a couple of minutes to scrawl 'LOVE' on their arms to show their support and solidarity with this cause.

TWLOHA is the story of Renee, her story of self infliction and depression was so great that it has inspired musicians, artists and ordinary people to show their support for her and people in her postion.

TWLOHA is a non-profit organisation which believes that there is hope for those depressed, suicidal, lost and struggling. They aid in recovery and treatment for these troubled souls and invite the public to help in this noble cause.

"The vision is that we would learn what it means to love our friends, and that we would love ourselves enough to get the help we need."

[CREDIT: read more on their website]

mentoring

So yesterday I met the four mentees I will be mentoring for this coming academic year.

I was super nervous to meet them, anecdotes of bad first impressions kept running through my head.I tried to bring all my training to mind, smile, look approachable, had a good posture, eye contact..the list was whirring in my mind but my body refused to obey the rational orders my brain was sending me.
At least I wasn't alone, the other three mentors from my uni were there too- in the same position I was in. We all had each other for moral support and the looks of apprehension we kept throwing at each other made me feel like I wasn't the only one with jitters in my stomach.
As an introductory exercise, the mentees took us round their school, familiarised us with the hallways, classrooms, CSC room [which they all had spent time in *shock* ] and the bathrooms.As soon as I had been shown round, I immediately lost track of which room held which subject and thus I was really lost and feeling super awkward. I remembered that building a rapport with the mentees at the initial meet-up is vital, so I asked random questions like, what were their expectations of this project and where they see themselves in five years time.I had to keep asking them to repeat their names, I just couldn't keep those names in my head for that long!

When we all got back, we had to just sit and make conversation, see if you could see yourself working with that group of mentees, or if you'd like a change. I have to say, my group was full of funny characters! One of the lads wanted to become a Prime Minister, telling me Obama did it, so he felt that he had a shot too! *inward groan* They weren't taking anything seriously at first, but I think they realised that me being there is an opportunity for them to improve on their weaknesses and build on their strengths.

I don't know how it's going to be or what to expect.
I know one thing- I'm kinda excited for this, I think it's going to be an experience and a learning process for me and the mentees.
Wish me luck!

raining again

Bring out your umbrella,
Take out your mackintosh,
Prepare yourself for the torrent,
It's raining on us once again.

Don't look out of the window,
Try not to sigh so loud when you do,
Keep your complaints to yourself,
It's raining on us once again.

Brush away those tears,
Keep your chin up always,
Let your strength take over,
It's raining on us once again.

It's raining on us once again,
But don't let it get you down,
Be brave and bear the temporary pain,
It's raining on us once again.

endearments

'darlin'

'honey'

'sweetiepie'

'babe'

'love'

'babycakes'

NO.
Just stop.
They sound condescending and patronising.
None of them reflect on how much you love me, or how much you hate my name that you can't bring it to your lips and say that,instead you use these endearments which every other person on English speaking Earth says.
Grrr.

Ohh, and think of your OWN nickname, those who love me-already have.
:p

xkcd- sporks

There's this webcomic site I waste time on, I saw this picture which basically explains my random question answer on my profile.

[Credit]

Check the site out,it's absolutely brilliant!

:]

six quirks

This is a long due tagging post, I thought since I know I can't revise so last minute I'd just do this blogpost.
Okies, so I was tagged by Annie and the aim of the game is to share six quirky but unspectacular facts about yourself.

The Rules are:
[copied and pasted!]

~ Link to the Blogger who tagged you.
~ In your blog, post The Rules and...
~ Six quirky but unspectacular factoids about yourself
~ Tag six other bloggers by linking to them
~ Go to each person's blog, and leave a comment that lets them know they've been tagged.
My own rule~ Let me know you've done this tagged post too!

Before I start-I want to say that this was really hard for me to think of,since I'm obviously accustomed to my oddities and weirdness-I really couldn't think of any that would be so strange and bizarre-maybe I'm just too normal! Anyhow-here they are:

1. While I'm on the fone, I have to sit in front of a mirror and pull faces at my self as the other person is talking.Sometimes, if the conversation is really long, I'll start to make funny noises-like popping sounds or whistle- the person on the other end will be like: wtf?What on earth are you doing? I don't even realise I'm doing it sometimes!



2. I can stare at my hands and contemplate about any random thing for hours on ends. At family gatherings where I'm expected to just sit quietly, I just stare at my hands with fascination. Mum always says: They're the same as ever, are you trying to read your future? But it's not that, I just find comfort in looking at them.



3. I'm absolutely terrified of pigeons, at school when pigeons would land on the fields I'd grab my friend's arm and walk at such a great distance away from them.



4. When I get told off,I always feel sleepy. It's as though the whole yelling-at-me is draining my energy away. So many times, I've been the centre of drama at home where my parents are mad at me, but I'll have missed the whole yelling coz I've been asleep,simply tired of being yelled at.



5. I can write incredibly fast, when I take notes- I probably look like the biggest geek around (and I am!) since I write at a record pace. Unfortunately, my handwriting is only legible to me and can be deciphered by talented friends only! Ohhh, and my handwriting is the same in every single pen, no joke.It rarely varies from pen to pen.



6. I lie to people I've only just met- not humongous lies, but just tease them a little. I'd tell someone my birthday is the very next month that we've met.Just little things, and I'd tell them the truth afterwards, it's a weird thing to do but that's what this is all about!
   
   Okies, so now I tag:

smiley, liz,igbygoes88, lunatic, exquisite and dan

Release your inner weirdness!

my own fault

A rant will commence, so if you have sensitive eyes and an unstable heart rate plz look away NOW.

Not really, but if you're still reading this-you're in for a moan.

Arghhh,Uni is really wearing me down.
The nearer my assignment days are, the more I procrastinate and just lounge around the house doing everything but the assignment I have to write.
I have a class test tomorrow which I am so ill-prepared for.
An assignment due in a week's time, I don't even understand the question properly.It's okay because I have a tutorial due sometime during this week and I will ask my tutor for help.
I have a coursework due in two weeks time, I'm sorta relaxed about that since I know what to do but just need the motivation to do it.
I also have NO money for this week, I spent my this week's wages on air.Honestly,I have NO idea where it all went.Tut.

Just re reading all this, I realise I have nothing to complain about reallyy.
I guess this is sorta pointless since it's all self inflicted and stupid.
Owell.
*sigh*

kitty