final tag

31 Dec 2008

Last thing before we wake up in the new year:
My accomplishments,mistakes, regrets and overall experiences of 2008, tagged by siras.
  • Started a blog
  • Learnt to drive
  • Lost way too many close friendships
  • Made some amazing friends-online and in real life
  • Watched Dark Knight and Quantum of Solace only a day after they released
  • Fell in love with Owl City
  • Managed life without a mobile
  • Joined twitter
  • Met an online friend of a year
  • Given unheard advice
  • Experienced a love/hate relationship with apple products
  • Hated the new facebook
  • Eaten too much Chinese food
  • Had spontaneous friends visiting at my house
  • Sleepovers with no sleeping involved
  • Cappaccino addictions relived
  • Embarrassed myself beyond counting and blushing
  • Sat on rides I'd never dare to only because I was competing with a 14yr old
  • Bought way too many clothes only to wear only once
  • Had a fringe cut only to be annoyed by it constantly
  • Changed my style from black to brown colour
  • Travelled to three cities without anyone knowing, alone
  • Endured three hour long lectures
  • Hated Katy Perry songs
  • Became a professional mentor
  • Learnt I have become cynical and skeptical as ever
  • Witnessed the first black President to be elected
  • Been disappointed and broken out with friend of four years
  • Written countless emails and letters
  • Procrastinated all because of YouTube and blogspot
  • Become infatuated with Canon Ixus 70.7 IMP *hint*

There's more, but I have assignments to write and an exam to revise for.{groan}

Happy New Year!

[I'm not going to tag anyone since there's not much time left for 2008 now]

week 52

27 Dec 2008

Rising flames,
Flickering embers,
Burning coals,
Silent thoughts
Suppressed words,
Hidden smiles,
Forgotten goodbyes,
Farewell.
2008

dear santa

24 Dec 2008

For years, I've seen little boys and girls scrawl letters to you of their materialistic needs asking for gifts which will have no value tomorrow. I thought this year, I would do something a little different and ask you for nothing [since I've not always been a good girl] but just request for you to sit and ponder about this time of the year.

Yes, it's the birthday of Jesus but why have you assigned yourself to make and distribute gifts across the globe?Are you getting paid? I don't mean stale cookies and a glass of milk, I mean proper courier wage? Also, how are you able to make so many gifts on such a large scale, I am well aware of your little troop of elves and reindeers but still, I'm unconvinced. Surely, there must be a factory of some sort in the Arctic which the films have tried to replicate.

Also, how on Earth have you managed to stay so roly-poly, there must be a vendetta against such an obese Santa Claus since chimneys are becoming the thing of yesterday and mince pies should be banned for health reasons. I think the world needs to move on, we've established the Tooth Fairy to be a fabrication of sweet companies, but for you- I really don't see why we're still making our children believe you're still a much needed character at this holiday times.

How does the postal service reach you? The amount of letters you must receive at this time must be tricky for the postman to come all the way to the Arctic, ever thought of moving someplace closer to civilisation? Heard of email? Maybe you should ask for an internet connection next-, oh hold on. I think you should ask on your birthday or something.

Anyhow, I feel bad since I don't celebrate this holiday religiously, but like any other person living in the Western world. I intend to make the most of the sales and price cuts made on the birthday of Jesus, it works out for all of us.

All the best and good luck.
You've got a rough and busy night ahead of you.
Merry Christmas Happy Holidays, we're politically correct now.

my take on a personality test

22 Dec 2008

Personality Test Result:You are Extroverted and Open
They say:Extroversion:You have medium extroversion.

I say:So I'm concerned with the physical realities which surround me, I think in part this is true but honestly, I rarely have any interest in the news or situations so far away.Ofcourse, I make it my duty to know what's happening but I won't obsess about another person's life to the extent that it takes over mine.Guess that's selfish but it's how I am.

They say:You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
I say:I think it depends on my mood, some days I'll be lively and bubbly on others I really don't feel like being loud, but rather more observant to my counterparts and see how we all behave when we think we're just being ourselves.
They say:Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
I say:Yepp, this is me.With great emphasis on the 'sometimes.'I love meeting new people, I always think there's more to people than they let on, their insecurities and personal experiences make me realise how alike we all really are.
They say:But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time".
I say:Ofcourse, I can be a loner at the best of times.I get tired of a single person's presense at all times.I need time for myself and just unwind and relax by myself.Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy people's company, but there's a limit to being around them.

They say:Conscientiousness:You have low conscientiousness.

I say:I didn't even know what 'conscientiousness' meant til I googled it.Hmm, basically means I'm not careful enough.I guess my regrets and mistakes tell me this much but I'd like to think I'm more aware and conscientious as I've grown older.

They say:Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.

I say:I don't think I agree with this one, I used to have a tendency of simply just doing whatever I felt like- I'd say things I would end up regretting for weeks on end and cursing myself for being so thoughtless.I guess we do have certain traits we're stuck with for life, but I think I'm not as impulsive as I was before.
As for not taking life seriously, I think I take it a little TOO seriously at times, I tend to OVERTHINK things which are irrelevant and insignificant to others but seem to be super-important to me.
They say:Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.

I say:I'm not going to deny this one.

They say:Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.

I say:Woah, that's so harsh Mr Personality Test, I think I've only accomplished the things I have in life because I'm not like that! Owell.

They say:In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.

I say:Hmm, I think betrayal does that to you.But I think I've become a more trustworthy person now, I've seen that the world isn't full of slippery tongues and extended ears. Caution is advised at all times though, that's a must for me

They say:And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.
I say:I think I'm open to adversity and a difference of opinion.If anything I like people with an opinion which differs from mine, makes life all the more interesting.

They say:Neuroticism:You have low neuroticism.

I say:Think I'll agree with you there.
They say:You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.

I say:So you are capable of saying nice things! I think we're all a little unstable at times, but most of the times I've got a handle on my emotional state.

They say:Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.

I say:{sigh} I wish it were like that.Often the smallest of things make me fall backwards and keep me there til I've got the strength to recover.

They say:Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

I say:I guess so.I had this friend who was so emotionally insecure, I'd spend hours jsut trying to make her believe in herself.I guess that's helped me become who I am today.

They say:Openness to experience:Your openness to new experiences is medium.

I say:I think we've covered this before- but medium is the operative word here.

They say:You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.

I say:I'd like to think so.

They say:But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.

I say:Absolutely.

They say:You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

I say:Actually, I love wacky things! Anything different and bizarre makes me smile because it's such a bold expression of freedom. That person is not afraid to be seen as different, I love that.

jokes

21 Dec 2008

There were ten minutes left for hometime, the kids were getting restless so I thought it would be a good time to just relax for the remaining minutes of class.


me:Tell me a joke
student 1: okayy, knock knock
me:Who's there?
student 1:doctor who
me:uhmm *pauses* you've told me the joke
student 1:okayy, I've got a really good one
me:okies
student 1:what d'you call a deer with no eyes
me:no idea [coz I'm a spoilsport]
student 2:what's a bee's favourite car?
me:dunno
student 2: a bee emm double youuu
me:brilliant!
student 1:that's my favourite car!
student 2: what d'you call a bee who's been infected?
me:dunno
student 2:a zom-beeee
me:ohh,okies
student 2: what's a bee's..
me:don't you have anything other than bee jokes?
student 2: don't you know any jokes?

PWNED.

winter spells

19 Dec 2008



See those pretty stars twinkling,
Pick up your paintbrush and get painting,
Stretch out to see the horizon blazing,
Open your eyes,don't blink to miss a thing.

See those dazzling sparks flying,
Look beyond and gaze at it,wondering,
Be aware and listen to the whispering,
Secret lovers silently smiling.

See those amazing beauties laughing,
Marvel at their little fingers entwining,
Don't shy away from their curious fidgeting
Cute babies make wonderful playthings.

See those quiet flowers growing,
From the frozen ground- early blooming,
Tiny petals surely form gasps of marvelling,
Gorgeous colours brilliantly alarming.


[Photo credit:SS <3]

tweet twitter

17 Dec 2008

the day the earth stood still:my review

15 Dec 2008

So today I went to watch this, I hadn't really given much thought to seeing it, seen the trailer and had that one second thought thinking,'Yea, I'd like to see that'.
Keanu Reeves:I have to say my two pennies worth on him. His character,for me- is always going to be the cop in Speed and Neo in The Matrix. I always see him as the stern, stiff-eyebrowed, mono-syllabic,snarling tough dude who usually saves the world in the end.I saw a snippet of Constantine a while ago, he was the same in there,chain smoking and moody. So yes, I wasn't really expecting much change in this film and yes, this fulfilled my expectations.
He plays the character of an alien in a human body who has come to save the planet Earth but not the inhabitants.It's pretty intense all the way through, you're gripped on your seat wondering when exactly will the fighting and world ending to occur; that's the thing.It doesn't actually ever happen. There's a bit where everything's being consumed by the dust particles in the air and you think: This is it, the world's ending, but it doesn't because..well, go watch it.

I think the suspense makes the film so gripping and worth the money- there's not much action in it to make you snap up and pay attention.It's all in the waiting and wondering how will the aliens attack. I'm an action-kinda girl so I was disappointed that Reeves' character thought humanity deserved a chance and could change.

In reality, we can't change.Not completely, there's a bit where the professor says, species change when they're at the brink of destruction- but I think that's cutting it too fine.We should be making ourselves better regardless of the imminent disaster infront of us.
I think the alien went easy on Earth.That's my conclusion.

butterfly award

14 Dec 2008

In my black, long dress and Manolo Blahnik cream stillettos I walk across to the stage.Thousands of glittering diamonds twinkle at me, smiling faces look across to catch a glimpse ofmy tear-stained face: I've won an award!
Cute shoes and dramatic entrances to the side, seriously I'm honoured to have been given this award.I haven't been on the blog scene for long and it means a lot that my writings are recognised by some amazing bloggers.
Two words are often enough for the greatest moments,I'll say mine
.
THANKYOU.
I'd like to present the award to:
vitaneee she's sucha sweetie.
impressionist for being so amazingly talented
seher my procrastination hasn't kept her away and that means a lot.
Spread the love, check these blogs out: you won't be disappointed, I'm sure.
<3

scattergories

13 Dec 2008

I was tagged by SEHER.
SCATTERGORIES
1. What is your name: hfm
2. A 4 Letter word: home
3. A Boys Name: harry
4. A Girls Name: hannah
5. An Occupation: hydro electrician
6. A Color: hazel
7. Something you wear: hat
8. A Beverage: hot chocolate
9. A Food: hamburger
10. Something found in the bathroom: hairspray
11. A place: Holland
12. A Reason for being late: hate abused at you
13. Something you shout: HURRY UP!
So I went through the tedious act of hyperlinking each person I've tagged-kindly do this tag so it's worth it! Andd enjoy.
:)

before it ends

12 Dec 2008

Time left til 2009:
19days
461hours
27672minutes
1660370seconds


My sincere note of hope is to be more organised in the upcoming year, academically I'd like to have all things done before the deadline and plan assignments way ahead of time. If I accomplish that-I'll be more relaxed closer to the time and more calmer and confident with my work. Socially, I'd like the same thing so I can visit old friends more frequently and spend time with people whose company I miss due to my lack of planning skills.

I want to be content inside.Thoroughly.I understand that this is a lifelong ambition and accomplishing this in a year is no easy feat-so I will take this to be a pursuit of happiness and contentment of the heart and mind. I'd love to be just peaceful with the way life is and how fate has surprises- but whatever they may be, I want to be happy with that.

I am habitual of simply procrastinating. I have left this tag post til too late, nearly half of December has passed and I still was in two minds of doing this post solely for the reason that I had no idea what my resolutions were, and also that I wasn't prepared to discover for myself what they may be.

There have been moments where I felt I have loved myself a little too less. Without sounding self absorbed I feel that loving your own self is vital to coming to understand who you are- I need to just accept my flaws and mistakes to be a part of my personality and character. This is the step I shall try to make forward in 2009.

I have made several best friends this year and I truly hope 2009 makes our friendships stronger and truer. I hope to learn more about these special stars in my life and give my best to them as they have to me.

I make resolutions every year in the vain wish that they'll be kept throughout the following year. This year, I'm doing the same because I'm a wishful thinker- maybe 2009 will be different and I will be able to keep these ones!

I hope to have achievements to make my family proud, but mostly anything to make them happy always. I think 2008 made me realise that not all achievements have to be academic ones, sometimes the easiest thing for one person is the stepping stone to success for another. I'm of the opinion that the littlest things matter, and remembering their importance is the great thing in life.

Every day, every week- I'd like the believe that I make a difference to those around me and if I haven't I try my hardest to do so. I'd like 2009 to be a year of minimal regret and maximum enjoyment.

I ask: exquisite, smiley and the lover what they think the New Year brings for them.
Use the emboldened words as a guide to continue the tag post along into 2009.

quiz from vitaneee

10 Dec 2008

1. What’s your name?Hfm [they're my initials]
2. What is your favorite thing to wear?My pajamas and a warm hoodie
3. Last thing you ate?krispy kreme donuts :]
4. One place you will NEVER eat at?dunno, I like eating out :)
5. I say Shotgun, you say:huhuhuhuhuh?
6. Last person you hugged?my friend at uni :D
7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?nopeee, I eat my dates
8. Would you date anyone you met online?nowazz
9. Name something you like physically about yourself:my eyebrows
10. The last place you went out to dinner to?krispy kreme place at selfridges
11. Who is your best friend?I have lots, all for different reasons
12. What time of the day is it?17:18
13. Who/What made you angry today?nobodyy, I'm a happy bunny
.14. Baseball or Football?Football
15. Ever gone skinny dipping?noo
16. Favorite type of Food?I <3food17. Favorite holiday: anyplace where I can be with my loved ones
18. Do you download music:yepp, tut.I'm a cheapskate
19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?I hate socks.Ewww.It's like carrying dust everywhere with you.
20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?I bet they've got this conspiracy in China to have all the non-Chinese people wearing stuff like:IDIOT written over their clothing!Hah.
21. Would you date the person that posted this?naah, but she's a sweetie :]
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yepp
23. Do you love anyone?yes
24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?depends on what colour and who's wearing them
25. Have you ever bungee jumped? no
26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?not white-water, but just rafting
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?no.Eww.
28. How many pets do you have?none,I have a big family though :p
29. Have you met a real redneck?nah
30. How is the weather right now?biting cold and frosty
31. What are you listening to right now?my sister talking
32. What is your current favorite song? rainbow veins by owl city
33. What was the last movie you watched?ohh,haven't seen anything in a while..think Mean Girls was on at my friends house and watched some of that.
34. Do you wear contacts?yep
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?uni
36. What are you afraid of?lots,I'm a scaredy cat-but mostly losing the people I love
37. How many piercings have you had? around six
38. What piercings do you want?no more,I've got enough!
39. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year? planning and organisation is EVERYTHING
40. What do you usually order from Starbucks? I don't drink there :
41. What Magazines are you reading?Asiana coz I love Asian fashion
42. Have you ever fired a gun:not a kill-you-in-one-shot one
43. Are you missing someone?nope, I'm pretty content at the moment
44. Favourite TV show? gossip girl :D
45. Do you have an obession with WoW?nope
46. Has anyone said you look like a celebrity?ughh yea :
47. What celeb do you look like? *skips*
48. Who would you like to see right now? mum, where is she?!
49. Favorite movie of all time? The Truman Show,it's so trippy
50. Do you find yourself loved? yepp,all the time
51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t suppose to? ohh yea *blushes*
52. Favorite smell? freshly washed clothes
53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn? ohh whatever you're buying ;)
54. What’s something that really bugs you? people who click their fingers >.<
55. Do you like Michael Jackson? does he like me?
56. Taco Bell or Burger King? neither
57. What’s your favorite perfume? nina ricci
58. Favorite baseball team? *pass*
59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number? wrong country?continent?
60. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep?around a day and a half,maybe
61. Last time you went bowling? Too long ago
62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?dunno really :
63. Who was your last phone call? to my brother
64. Last time you were at work?around four days ago
64. What is the closest orange object near you? a Jeffrey Archer novel: The Eleventh Commandment

aching dreams

7 Dec 2008

I had this image flashing before my eyes late last night in between the moments of falling asleep and drifting into slumber.I got out my pen and some paper and brought the image out from the darkness with a blend of fiction and imagination to see it in its purest form.

The night enveloped me into its darkened,soothing embrace, I gently slipped into a dream- so vivid and compelling I have prised my eyes open and written my account of the journey my eyes took with the immobility of my body and the imagination of my mind.
The heat feels overwhelming, a gentle breeze caresses my cheek kindly reminding me of a reason to continue my quest onwards.I feel as though I am of two bodies: my physical part is torn and limping, moving at a pathetic rate forward whereas the epitome of my soul is somewhat curious, taking in the unusual surroundings and unwilling to move onwards without an explanation of my position here.

I gaze around me- a group of dishevelled travellers, a human pix'n'mix of some sort trudging forward across the desert landscape. Around me is a vast empty space of dunes and blinding sunlit sane.It's unfamiliar yet expected. My eyes are accustomed to the bright light but my footsteps are weary from the tiring, endless walk. I seem to have accepted this fate even expectant of this emotion, yet my awakened mind cannot comprehend this. My destination is unknown but my advancing movement contradicts my reluctance to question my companions.
I look at the man in front of me, easily I judge his stance and domineering walk to one of a leader's.He glances at me and gently scolds me, his tone reminds me of my brother's a hint of annoyance with the subtlety of someone who has felt like this on countless occasions.

Within my physical self, I detect euphoria mingled with expectation. My mind wanders into the horizon and my vision follows soon after, birds, no- vultures circling something in the distance. My heart beats rapidly in fear which rationality calms the restless pace- water! There's life besides this tavern which I've associated myself with.
Slowly, my mind adds the pieces together, everything seems to make sense.The pilgrimage, that's my destination.Ofcourse.

My sleepy soul drifts out of the dreamy state and echoes the yearn felt every year- when will my turn come to visit Your House? My invite to see the stars under the open land of Arafah? It has been so too long since I've seen the black clothed Ka'abah and walked in the city of your beloved [SAW]. But I shall wait somewhat impatiently for my turn.Inshallah.

[2:196] And complete the Hajj or 'umra in the service of Allah

EID MUBARAK TO YOU ALL!


non-deviant

6 Dec 2008

Women like silent men. They think they're listening. says:
i love kids
Women like silent men. They think they're listening. says:
not in a paedo way
Mz M says:
loll!!!!
Mz M says:
i should copy and paste that and put it on my blog;)
Women like silent men. They think they're listening. says:
lol :D i get a mentionnnnnnn
Mz M says:
aww is that what u want?
Mz M says:
u just had2 say!!

fear

5 Dec 2008

Inevitably, it catches up with me,
Leering and creeping
Reminding me of my weakness
Tears coarse my face
Staining my cheeks
And crippling my facade
Of strength and nonchalance
The hollowness of my stomach
Causes me to stumble
Whispering echoes
Inaudible screams
Distance me from my reality

farewell to 2008-emails

4 Dec 2008

[This was in my inboxx demanding to be shared!]

Dear All
As we are nearing the end of 2008 I thought I would wish you a pleasant and successful final phase with great dreams for 2009. My thanks to all those who have sent me emails this past year...

I must send my thanks to whoever sent me the one about rat shit in the glue on envelopes because I now have to use a wet towel with every envelope that needs sealing.Also, I now have to scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason.

I no longer have any savings because I gave it to a sick girl (Penny Brown); who is about to die in the hospital for the 1,387,258th time.

I no longer have any money at all, but that will change once I receive the R15, 000 that Bill Gates/Microsoft and AOL are sending me for participating in their special e-mail program....Or from the senior bank clerk in Nigeria who wants me to split $7 million with me for pretending to be a long lost relative of a customer who died intestate.

I no longer worry about my soul because I have 363,214 angels looking out for me, and St. Theresa's novena has granted my every wish.

I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day.

Because of your concern I no longer drink Coca-Cola because it can remove toilet stains.I no longer can buy petrol without taking a friend along to watch the car so a serial killer won't crawl in my back seat when I'm filling up.

I no longer go to shopping malls because someone will drug me with an aftershave sample and rob me.

I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica , Uganda, Singapore and Uzbekistan .

Thanks to you, I can't use anyone's toilet but mine because a big brown African spider is lurking under the seat to cause me instant death when it bites my bum.

And thanks to your great advice, I can't even pick up the R50.00 I found dropped in the car park because it probably was placed there by a sex molester waiting underneath my car to grab my leg.

If you don't send this e-mail to at least 144,000 people in the next 70 minutes, a large dove with diarrhea will land on your head at 5:00pm this afternoon and the fleas from 12 camels will infest your back, causing you to grow a hairy hump.I know this will occur because it actually happened to a friend of my next door neighbor's ex-mother-in-law's second husband's cousin's beautician's relative once removed.

By the way....a South American scientist after a lengthy study has discovered that people with low IQ who have infrequent sexual activity always read their e-mails with their hand on the mouse.Don't bother taking it off now, it's too late! :)

Regards,
Me

mummy deer

2 Dec 2008

On the night my dad was going for Hajj, my parents and I were sitting on their bed and just going through last-minute packing. Dad came across a phone card for Africa and he passed it on to her saying:'Ring your sister and talk for the whole £5' since the cards are redundant after the first phone call.
So mum took the card and we both looked at it, there was a picture of a deer and a fawn suckling milk.It was such an adorable picture, the mother was so still and the image was one of absolute motherly love. Mum and I were musing over it for so long amazed at how in every species there's always one thing in common: parental love and how the young are looked after so deerly [haha, lame but necessary].

Okies, so some animals eat their young but come on-the pic was so cute I had to share!
<3

EDIT: the pic is here